@eldritch48 As a straight white REFORMED conservative/moderate male in his late 50s, let me say that it can be tough to change things that have been automatic for your whole life, after 50+ years. I still often refer to my local grocery store by the name of one we haven't lived near for ten years now lol!
But *trying* to improve yourself never ends, if you're motivated to do it in the first place. It's hard though, and most aren't willing to even try... Good luck!